The Magic of Making Mistakes

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Bad things that mean nothing.

I loved this video (embedded below) by New Yorker Magazine about Liana Finck. Not only did it make me miss New York, but the part were she takes two hours to create bad drawings really stood out for me.

Lately I’ve been seeing (in myself and others) an all or nothing mindset when it comes to creativity, and life choices in general. Like we have to do things perfectly the first go-around or it’s a waste of time. We often forget how important process is. And mistakes are part of the process.

Doing things terribly. Trying things out. Having to make changes. Losing investments. Looking foolish. Not getting the results we were hoping for. Things not working out. Failure to meet expectations. Feeling silly. Experiencing regret. Of course all of that is hard to accept. But how will you grow and evolve if you aren’t willing to be uncomfortable?

I’ve mentioned this before, but I erased an entire website that I created because ONE PERSON (that I respected) criticized it. I felt like I had failed and I deleted the whole thing. Which was not a good idea. I really wish that I could have let that work live and allowed myself to be vulnerable and publicly (or even privately) evolve. I wish that I wasn’t so hasty and reactive, and would have accepted the creative process and continued to explore ideas without the self-imposed pressure of having to be perfect.

Another example is in my personal life. I left New York and moved to North Carolina, then Oregon, then California. All of those moves were a huge risk that came with a hefty price. I invested so much time, money and effort. It was emotionally, mentally and physically super-taxing.

Looking back, the loud voice in me says, “Oh f*ck! What did you do? Ugh. What a loss.” But there is a softer, wiser, all-seeing voice that whispers, “What if those mistakes were exactly what you needed for your highest evolution? What if they lead to something amazing, beyond your current understanding? Everything is fine. Keep going. Don’t be afraid to get banged up a little.”

Just like any vehicle, this body is not forever. My life is my greatest adventure and greatest work of art. I don’t want to waste it by playing safe. I have to remind myself of that, over and over. I constantly need reminders.

I’m so grateful for the experiences I had this week that reinforced the idea that stepping into the Unknown is worth it. Looking silly is worth it. Losing money is worth it. Wasting time is worth it. Following your curiosity is worth it. Allowing yourself to be childlike is worth it. Doing bad things and making mistakes is worth it.

It’s all part of the creative process.

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Happy Birthday! :)

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Time to reflect and celebrate.

Happy Birthday to me and my fellow Capricorns!

I decided to share a Mac Miller video with you. (It’s embedded below.) His birthday is 7 days after mine. He’s no longer with us in body, but his spirit remains through his art.

It’s rare that I think about the awe of being alive without thinking about death. Ever since I was five years old I’ve obsessively dwelled on both. (That’s no exaggeration.) It still remains a mystery why it has been in the forefront of my thinking for four decades. It must sound strange to people. I hope I’m not the only one. I wonder if Mac Miller was similar in that way? His song/video “Good News” makes me feel less alone and a little less weird. Thanks, Mac!

In any case, I’m so grateful to be here for another year. I’m excited for my birthday, a new year and a new decade. I have a feeling 2020 is going to be amazing, and life-changing in a meaningful way. I’m blowing my party horn right now, but you can’t hear me. Toot!
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To be continued…

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Jar of Fears

Jar of Fears

Happy New Year!

Wishing everyone their most amazing year yet. May it be full of super-big WOWs and all sorts of mind blowing moments that make you smile from every cell of your vibrant being!

Wishing the same for me too. I feel like the last batch (that’s an understatement) of years have been a real doozy. Chock-full of unexpected turns, interesting insights and bumpy roads I thought I would never have to cross. But here I am! Still on board for the next adventure. (Still have my furry pal at my side.) Ready to take on another year.

My plan is to embrace whatever happens in 2020 …but also MAKE IT GREAT. Create a year that stands out from all other years. Produce a year that feels like a warm ray of sunshine that illuminates and validates past years. That’s the plan.

I will be using a few things to help me do this.

1. Full Focus Planner
It will help me to stay clear, focused and on track.

2. One Line a Day – Five Year Memory Book (Book 1 of 2)
This will NOT be used for jotting down memories. Instead I will be using it to record the lengths of daily meditation sessions. I am aiming for 10 years straight of DAILY meditation sessions. The goal is not to miss a single day from 2020 to 2030! This goal will eventually require two of these journals. Each one holds 5 years of daily notes.

4. My Fitness Pal
This is a website I use where I record my health data. You can use it for counting macros, calories, water, exercise, etc… It’s the only thing that truly keeps my health on track. (In addition to getting enough sleep and working to lower stress, and getting good at saying “No”. Trying my best to raise the bar on those three things.)

4. Accountability Partner
It’s always helpful for me to have people (friends, coaches, etc.) that hold me accountable to my goals. I recommend choosing someone you pay, admire or deeply respect. Otherwise, you won’t take it seriously if you subconsciously don’t take them seriously, and vice versa.

5. The Jar of Fears
The most amazing year I ever had is when I wrote a list of my fears and spent a year crossing them off one-by-one. Since then, I’ve had the intention of conquering fears, but haven’t followed through. I simply never made it a dedicated habit or put a fear brawling practice in place. This year I have created something I am calling my JAR OF FEARS. It will sit on my desk, next to my computer. The goal is to feed it every time I feel overwhelmed or intimidated! (Which is pretty much daily.) I will write out the fear I want to challenge on a piece of paper. Get it done and over with. Then put the paper in the jar. On December 31st , 2020, I want to see how full the jar is! I also want to read through my crumpled fears and see if they still sound scary. (Knowing me, I’m sure most of them will sound silly at that point.) I’m very curious to see how it all turns out!

What are your plans for the new year?

Happy 2020! ♥

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To Think Beyond

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“The bad news is you’re falling through the air, nothing to hang on to, no parachute. The good news is there’s no ground.”

“Becoming ‘awake’ involves seeing our confusion more clearly.”

“There is no need to struggle to be free; the absence of struggle is in itself freedom.”

“It’s easier to put on a pair of shoes than to wrap the earth in leather.”

“The idea is not to regard the spiritual path as something very luxurious and pleasurable, but to see it as just facing the facts of life.”

“We must try to think beyond our homes, beyond the fire burning in the fireplace, beyond sending our children to school or getting to work in the morning. We must try to think how we can help this world. If we don’t help, nobody will. It is our turn to help the world.”

All quotes by Chögyam Trungpa

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Richard Haines: What I Saw Today

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Robert Therrien: Sense of Wonder

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I just found out that artist Robert Therrien passed away this year. I’m so grateful that his work lives on. It reminds me to live with a sense of wonder and appreciation. –Thank you, Robert! ♥ Thank you for sharing your unique talent and magnificent perspective.

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Quotes & Questions from James Clear

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