“Why is it, that through my life I felt this sense of irritation? This agitation, this emptiness, this hollowness? This feeling that something is not quite there. The feeling that there is something just beyond my grasp. This sort of loneliness, a hollowness in me always. It nagged away at me. When I found, sort of, every progressive drug; cannabis, LSD, crack, heroin — each of them were greeted as tiny little powdery profits — solutions to the problem of my inner angst. But, you know, none of them worked. The thing is, what I have learned is, that what I was looking for all that time, is a sense of union, a sense of connection. I heard once, that all desire, is an inappropriate desire to be one with God. Who knows that more than we? I think we drug addicts are very religious people. I think we have a yearning for something potent. Life is just not enough. It’s enough for other people to go have a few drinks, a bit of a smoke, even a couple of lines. And they’re alright with it. Why for us must there be more? Why for us is there the subsequent misery? Because for us, these flimsy scraps are never going to be enough. We want the real connection. We want the absolute connection. And the thing is, that kind of connection exists. It’s possible that you in fact could find it now. But first you have to remove the chemicals and substances. You have to get rid of them. I believe in abstinence based recovery. I believe that if you are a drug addict in the nature that I am, you have to remove drugs from your life. Then what I think is, you have to create the conditions for a spiritual experience. You have to create the conditions. I heard a wonderful analogy once, apparently if you live in rural America — and I can’t imagine what that must be like — but if you do, you have to build a post box. You have to put a post up and build the post box to the exact specifications. Otherwise, the U.S. mail ain’t going to deliver your letters! So every morning, if you are thinking, “Eh, I can’t be bothered to build a mailbox. They can just chuck it on the lawn.” You might not get any letters, and you might therefore receive the information in your head that no one loves you, that no one cares about you. But you didn’t build the conditions for the letters to be delivered! I’ve been getting clean from drugs and following 12 step based abstinence programs. It’s creating the conditions for a spiritual experience. We have to create the conditions for the letters to be delivered. Once we create the condition for the spiritual experience — which isn’t easy — it isn’t easy, but it’s easier than being a drug addict in active addiction. Once you create those conditions, it’s possible for the spiritual experience. Then, you will need the support of a community, a community of like minded people. I think this is true for any transcendence, for any spiritual life.” — Russell Brand
Here we are. At a pretty big milestone.
Lots of ups and downs. Somedays were easier than others.
I admit, I was to blame for all those moments where it seemed like the relationship was losing its magic, as well as its momentum.
I’m so sorry for any promises I may have broken, or any moment when I simply didn’t show up like I should have.
But here we are! And here I am. Ten years later.
Yes, you read that right. TEN YEARS later.
Happy 10th anniversary! Sunday Is For Lovers began September 8th, 2007.
It’s kind of a long story, but it was originally an accountability blog for my creative projects.
When I was living in New York, I’d have Sunday brunch with my friends Genevieve & Charlie. We would discus personal projects, ideas and things we wanted to create, that weren’t part of our professional careers. (I was doing creative work and making art full time, but not usually my own art. You can see what I mean via this link.) During brunch I would discus my ideas and my progress, and they would hold me accountable for them. I loved this routine! But it was short lived.
Genevieve & Charlie decided they wanted to move to Los Angeles. Great news for them, but not good news for me. I was losing two best-ies, as well as my creative accountability partners. When I expressed my concern to Genevieve, she came up with a great idea. She convinced me that I should blog. That I could use it as a vehicle to help me stay on track, and a way to stay in touch with them.
It sounded like a great idea. I thought maybe I could use it keep to contact with other friends and family at the same time.
Well, the blog pretty much became an eclectic journal from day one, and then a positive news feed for a while, and then an eclectic journal again. I never used it as a creative accountability log, but it has been a fantastic way to stay in contact with both family and friends.
And to my surprise, I have made lots of new friends online as well! So many amazing things and wonderful people have blossomed out of this blog. The relationships I’ve made through Sunday Is For Lovers have lasted for years, and continue to this day.
This blog has been such a big part of my life. I know it will continue to grow roots and limbs and blossoms. Sometimes it hits a lull (because I get too busy with work and fall into blogging dry spells), but I’m certain a major upswing is on the horizon. I can feel it in my bones. So look out for that!
And… I’ll tell you a little secret. I started another blog on September 8th — this year. It’s not ready to share publicly, yet. I’ll reveal it soon. It’s going to be my weekday blog, to compliment this Sunday blog. For anyone that is interested in lots more posts, or weekday updates — this new blog will be for you.
Happy 10th anniversary! Thanks for reading this blog, and thanks for being a friend.
Thanks for being part of this crazy journey. It’s only the beginning.
“If nothing saves us from death, at least love should save us from life.”
“He who has nothing—it has been said many times—has nothing to lose but his chains.”
“You can cut all the flowers but you cannot keep Spring from coming.”
“Someday, somewhere – anywhere, unfailingly, you’ll find yourself, and that, and only that, can be the happiest or bitterest hour of your life.”
“All paths lead to the same goal: to convey to others what we are.”
“I grew up in this town, my poetry was born between the hill and the river, it took its voice from the rain, and like the timber, it steeped itself in the forests.”
“In one kiss, you’ll know all I haven’t said.”
All quotes by Pablo Neruda
“Security breeds stagnation.”
“Fantasy love is much better than reality love.”
“People are always so boring when they band together. You have to be alone to develop all the idiosyncrasies that make a person interesting.”
“The idea is not to live forever, it is to create something that will.”
“Why do people spend their time being sad when they could be happy?”
“Sometimes people let the same problem make them miserable for years when they could just say, “So what.” That’s one of my favorite things to say. “So what.” “My mother didn’t love me.” So what. “My husband won’t ball me.” So what. “I’m a success but I’m still alone.” So what. I don’t know how I made it through all the years before I learned how to do that trick. It took a long time for me to learn it, but once you do, you never forget.”
“My fascination with letting images repeat and repeat – or in film’s case ‘run on’ – manifests my belief that we spend much of our lives seeing without observing.”
“You need to let the little things that would ordinarily bore you suddenly thrill you.”
“I can never get over when you’re on the beach how beautiful the sand looks and the water washes it away and straightens it up and the trees and the grass all look great. I think having land and not ruining it is the most beautiful art that anybody could ever want to own.”
“Isn’t life a series of images that change as they repeat themselves?”
“When I got my first television set, I stopped caring so much about having close relationships.”
“In the future, everyone will be famous for 15 minutes.”
“If everyone isn’t beautiful, then no one is.”
All quotes and self-portrait by Andy Warhol