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I Am Okay

i am okay

As many of you know, more than 200,000 acres of land has burned in Northern California. While standing on my porch (in the Napa Valley), I could see blazing fires in the hills. I actually didn’t know there was a fire happening until I was woken up by a knock at the door.

At 12am midnight I packed a bag and grabbed my furry sidekick. Most of the bag was her stuff; dog food, water, sweater, carry-bag (she’s little and old), leash, harness, etc.. The only things I could think to take for myself were my wallet, jacket, laptop and cell phone — which did not work in my area.

I slept in a van that first night, and then spent the next 7 days in the east bay, checking on my home periodically.

Thank goodness I am totally fine, my sidekick is fine too. And I’m pretty certain that our home will not be part of the fires. I think we’ll only have to deal with smoke issues. We plan on returning home on Monday.

I’m so thankful for all the text messages, calls and emails I received. Thank you. It really made me feel loved. Thank you, thank you, thank you!

Before I sign off with much love & gratitude, I’ll just say this, when emergencies happen, it really becomes clear what is important to you.

If you got a knock at the door at midnight, and had to flee your home, what would you bring? Who would you call first? What do you care about most? What is key to your well-being and survival?

When I went to bed that night, I never thought that I would have to answer those questions. And now that those questions have been answered, I have more/different questions.

This week I plan on doing a lot of reflection. I think this disaster, along with all of the other disasters globally, is just the beginning. Our world is changing swiftly. The weather is different, how we communicate is different, the way we work and transport/travel is different.

Things are evolving at a rapid pace, whether we like it our not. And if we don’t adapt and rethink how we live, as well as what we want, it’s going to be an up hill battle.

I want to redesign my life in a way that suits these global changes.

For the time being, I’m just keeping my mind and heart open, staying aware of all possibilities — while I begin to make necessary changes little by little.

I don’t have any answers for myself at the moment, I only have questions.

Quotes like the ones below make me feel less alone and more on track. Thank goodness for like minds and their writings. It’s always been a source of comfort for me.

“Your preparation for the real world is not in the answers you’ve learned, but in the questions you’ve learned how to ask yourself.” ― B. Watterson

“So much of life isn’t about having the right answer; it’s about knowing the right question.” ― D. Hewitt

“Perhaps we shouldn’t try to answer the questions now – let’s just note them down. …the power in a question is not in the answer, it’s in the way the imagination gets busy when the question is at work.” ― J. Winspear

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