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Dust Yourself Off

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Not sure what year it was, possibly late 2009. I decided I needed a creative coach and I hired someone from Canada. We worked via phone and email. It was a very simple process, and very helpful. I was more clear and productive (pursuing my own creative & private projects) then I have ever been.

Problem was, after the coaching was over, I removed and deleted all of the work I created from the internet. The reason being, I received a small amount of criticism and felt that the work was not understood by the general public. It was about being. I was sharing my thoughts and works centered around meditation, simplicity and being-ness.

Now that I look back on it, it was me that wasn’t ready for the work. It was my own self-criticism, insecurities and non-acceptance of a new path, a new form of creative expression in my life — that I wasn’t quite ready for.

There is a quote that says, “If you can’t take the heat, stay out of the kitchen.” The fact that I wasn’t ready for public criticism means I wasn’t ready for the new work/life path and all it entailed.

It’s almost 10 years later now, and the resistance is still here. I feel it. On one hand I’m like, “Aimee, you dummy! What you were doing then was so great! You were ahead of your time! You should have kept going with it. Just dust yourself off and begin again. Continue with the work!” …And on the other hand, I can feel my jaw clenching and my heels digging into the ground. I’m still afraid of the unknown, still afraid of being different, …still fighting my own truth and self-expression.

So here I am. 43 years old. Still blocking truth and creative flow. Still too afraid to let stillness speak. Still playing safe and saving face. …Here I am, still occupying a half-baked life.

One can never truly live if they are hiding their own truth or innate gifts.

Life is meant to be shared, and it’s meant to be vulnerable and challenging.

It’s meant to be lived on the edge. Teetering and swaying, barely balancing on the fine line of known and unknown.

The quote from the Gospel of Thomas says, “If you bring forth what is within you, what you bring forth will save you. If you do not bring forth what is within you, what you do not bring forth will destroy you.”

Well, I guess it’s time to bring forth. Better late than never!

So the good news is, I decided to begin again. I decided to get coaching again, and I decided to explore the incorporeal nature of being-ness and mix it with the tangible process of creative presentation again.

The coach I’m currently working with is not a creative coach. He’s more of a business and life coach. Right now I am beginning with basic group coaching, just to clear my mind and create a spark. I started working with the group 3 weeks ago and it’s already helping so much. It’s re-ignitig a fire and getting me out of my comfort zone.

I’m so grateful for the dips, turns, crashes and waves of the journey I have been on. Each obstacle presented me with a Great Teacher, a sprit or guide nudging me to live more courageously, more truthfully. All along, they’ve been urging me to stop withholding and hiding, and share my heart & soul more abundantly.

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The Call (Answer It)

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Underground Secret of the Redwoods

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“Sometime ago I was with a friend, and we were walking through Muir Woods. Which is a redwood forest, close to San Francisco. Actually, every year I go with this friend there. We like to just be alone and walk through the redwood trees and share our thoughts. This one particular year, as we were going through the forest, there was a forest ranger speaking to a group of tourists. He said, “I want to share with you the underground secret of the redwood trees.” Now being from the 60s, something that never leaves my heart is an attraction for underground secrets. So I told my friend, let’s listen. So we stopped, and the ranger explained how in this forest we find some of the oldest, largest trees in the entire planet. He said, “Interestingly, the redwood trees do not have roots that grow very deep, and here it’s hilly ground with loose soil. Over the centuries there have been devastating earthquakes and massive storms. How do these trees keep growing?” He was quiet, to let everyone think. Then he revealed the underground secret, “Just underground, the redwood trees roots grow out, and they reach for the roots of other trees. And when two redwood trees roots meet, they wrap around each other. They embrace and create a permanent bond. In this way the trees support each other. And the little tiny redwood trees, that are just growing, they wrap their little thread-like roots around the giant roots of the ancients. And in this way they are all helping each other.” The ranger said, “Every tree in the entire forest is directly or indirectly supporting each other.” When we actulally care about each other, and share what we have with each other — unity is our strength. And like this story of the redwood forest, despite all the storms and challenges of life, we continue to grow, and grow and grow. And we need each other to do that.”

Quote by Radhanath Swami

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Friedrich Nietzsche: Dancing Star

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“He who has a why to live for can bear almost any how.”

“You must be ready to burn yourself in your own flame; how could you rise anew if you have not first become ashes?”

“He who would learn to fly one day must first learn to walk and run and climb and dance; one cannot fly into flying.”

“To those human beings who are of any concern to me I wish suffering, desolation, sickness, ill-treatment, indignities—I wish that they should not remain unfamiliar with profound self-contempt, the torture of self-mistrust, the wretchedness of the vanquished: I have no pity for them, because I wish them the only thing that can prove today whether one is worth anything or not—that one endures.”

“And those who were seen dancing were thought to be insane by those who could not hear the music.”

“You must have chaos within you to give birth to a dancing star.”

All quotes by Friedrich Nietzsche

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Mel Robbins: 5 4 3 2 1 …Go!

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Gotta love Mel Robbins. How could you not? She’s gives a super-easy to-the-point 5 second trick (technique) to change your life. Plus, she reminds us not to use the F-word. No, not that F-word! The other one.

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Where do you think you are going?

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I’m getting ready for a little nature drive to the snow cap mountains, and I have to pack a few things for the trip. At the same time, I’m thinking about my life’s direction and what I truly want in this lifetime. It feels like so much to think about! But in actuality, it’s not. I’m overthinking it (and I’m probably overpacking too.) Life is very-very simple. We are either grease on life’s wheels (fully living, loving and experiencing, zipping along, having a blast on this wild journey) or we are dragging along, hanging on for dear life (because we are holding on too tightly, desperately trying to control, interfering and slowing things down to a crawl, making things more challenging, turning stepping stones into stumbling blocks.) I think it’s always best to let go — yet, at the same time, listen closely and remain aware. Remain ready for all hands on deck, but fully relax; let go, use the wind and trust the waters, allow life to move you.

Today is going to be a blast from the past and a trip into the future. Play along with me. First, I would like you to read an old blog post of mine, the title is Overpacked? Where do you think you are going? I wrote it in 2012. The second thing I would like you to do is answer the questions I wrote below. I will answer them too! Maybe for my next blog post we can all share what we came up with. Ah-ha’s, insights and epiphanies (and awareness in general) is always my favorite thing to talk (and write) about. So if you see anything about yourself or your life, that jumps out at you as you answer the questions — let me know! You can always comment below or write to me directly.

After you are done reading the 2012 blog post I linked above (about being overpacked), complete the following questions…

What are the most significant moments of your life? What experiences in your life were major, that felt like turning points? What would you consider the memorable ‘war stories’ from your life? What were the take-home lessons, or the moments that gave you courage and lifted/ignited your spirit? What are you most proud of? What experiences or events do you like to share with others most often? What stories do you find yourself telling over and over again (or thinking of through the years)? What memories are hard to shake-off, because they had such a lasting impact on you?

What is life (your life) trying to tell you? What is the common thread? If there was a hero in the story (in your life story), what is their journey all about? What would you like to see them achieve? What would you want them to see/realize? What would you have them do next? What would you want most for them? What have you learned from what they have been through? What inspires you most about them?

You are the hero in your story. Your life has unfolded in an unpredictable way. Could you have ever been fully prepared or well planned for it? Would it have turned out the same if you were? Your life is unique. Listen to what your life is telling you. Stop trying to figure things out and simply listen. Be simple. Surrender. Stop fighting, stop trying to control it. Listen to what your journey has to say. Listen to what it is requesting of you. Listen and focus on what is most important, most important then and now.

See that you need very little in life, but what life asks of you is very big. It wants you to be simple. It wants you to surrender by getting out of your own way. It wants you to follow what moves you.

Ask yourself and truly let go and listen: What moves me the most? When do I feel moved? If I lived a life that truly moved me, what would I be doing, who would be in it, how would it look, and what do I need to do in order for it to be possible?

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Diving Into Your Deepest Self

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[Today’s blog was originally published in December 2012. But I thought it would be nice to revisit it.]

I came across two quotes that I really liked yesterday and wanted to share. I think it might be a good time for them, because I have been receiving emails about the mass killing that happened in Connecticut, and also, emails about major changes for people personally (death, illness, needing new homes or jobs, money concerns, relationship issues, etc.). My immediate thought about it all, is that nothing (no-thing) can make us happy. When I say happy, I mean totally content, without disharmony, in total peace of mind. Our lives can experience major changes & challenges or seem to not have them at all — and still we can feel like we are in a state of chaos, wishing for things to get better or be different.

Try this list on for size: someone being alive, someone being well, losing weight, gaining muscle, finding a great home, finding a great job, meeting the ideal partner, bonding with a best friend, having lots of money, having lots of love, getting rid of someone, getting rid of some thing, being free everyday to do what you want, absolutely no violence in the world, the perfect family, being a mom or dad, growing your own food in abundance, buying the ultimate summer home, losing all bad habits, being super prolific & productive, radiating flawless health, looking absolutely gorgeous, having no debt at all, blessed with amazing talent, owning acres of land, feeling totally secure & safe, …the list goes on & on, and you can put any words you like into this long list of “I can’t wait for this to happen” or “If I had this, then everything would be much much better.” Ask yourself, would it be? Have you not said this before about other things? Other things that happened for you, changed you for a little while, then the ‘missing’ came back? Also, look at all the people that might already have what you are missing, are they happy or content?

I think we need to go deeper. I think our lives serve as our mirrors. We see a ‘missing’ or something that is eating away at us; a person or situation is causing us stress or disharmony that we can’t wait to change; we think life would be suddenly better if our idea or desire finally happened; etc.. What is beyond all of these things that must happen in order for us to be happy, content, at peace, or feel secure?

Ask the ocean if it would be happier without any waves. It might very well say, yes. But is there a way that the ocean can find peace within a deeper part of itself? A part that is unmoving, unshakable? Is there a place within itself that is relaxed & grounded? Can it not identify with that part of itself more than the surface waves that are only transitory? The ocean is deep, very deep. So are we. If we want stillness, if we want peace, we must learn to dive deep — to anchor in the deepest part of ourselves.

Below are the quotes I promised. Let them sink in, then take responsibility for them. Be fearless. Relax into your deepest self — your unlimited, unconditional, universal self.

“You are who you allow yourself to become. The self is what it allows itself to be. […] The fundamental issue is getting past fears, getting past limiting beliefs, getting beyond habits, and getting to a blossoming of oneself — an allowing.” – R. Waggoner

“Whatever your passion is, it is also your path. And you have to go deeper. It’s not enough just to save the world, you have to also look at what is creating the disharmony in the world within yourself. That is what a death-rebirth experience is. The death is basically the death of what the ego or the mind believes to be important. The rebirth is, being born again into the wider perspective of reality; what it is to be a human being, but not focused on yourself. Focused as part of nature, as part of the wholeness that is nature. […] The longest journey we have to make is from our head to our heart.” – T. Samara

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