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One Elementary Truth

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“Until one is committed, there is hesitancy, the chance to draw back. Concerning all acts of initiative (and creation), there is one elementary truth, the ignorance of which kills countless ideas and splendid plans: that the moment one definitely commits oneself, then Providence moves too. All sorts of things occur to help one that would never otherwise have occurred. A whole stream of events issues from the decision, raising in one’s favor all manner of unforeseen incidents and meetings and material assistance, which no man could have dreamed would have come his way. Whatever you can do, or dream you can do, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it. Begin it now.”

― William H. Murray, The Scottish Himalayan Expedition

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A New Adventure

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I remember when I was in New York City dismantling my life (this process took me exactly 7 years). Donating and selling all of my things, giving away the photos I collected over the years, erasing phone books of acquaintances and work contacts. I was shedding my skin, a persona and deep rooted life I built on the east coast. As I was doing this, I found tattered journals, from my early years in New York and my youth back in California. I was amazed by how much I wrote the same thing over and over again — over decades. I wrote mainly about wanting to take better care of myself, as well as my yearning for inner peace. It was painful to read the struggle represented on the pages. It was like someone was trapped, wanting desperately to escape, eager to find a way out and create some sort of opening. They wanted to be set free, both mentally & physically.

So many of the dreams & goals written on the pages were realized over time. But I was aware of how many years it took to get to that place. It took me writing & wanting, experimenting & failing, trying repeatedly, being relentless about staying on course.

I also noticed that it was ever-evolving. The ladder always had more rungs, always had a higher view.

I remember when I told myself that if I could only stand on my head I would be so happy. Then it was if I could only take a yoga teacher’s training. After that it was advanced teacher training. Achieving that later turned into a desire to study yogic philosophy more deeply, meditate and go on silent retreats. But the retreats were never silent enough or long enough. I wanted to go in the forest and meditate for 6 months, to participate in a silent buddhist forest refuge program. There was always the next level, the next evolution, the next adventure.

For a while all of this stopped. Completely. The ladder and dreamy views faded away. The desires dwindled. Not much remained. Only reflection and observation. It’s clear to me that almost all of what I was wanting and working towards, was not just a lightness of body & mind, but an openness of heart and a surrender to Grace. I wanted to feel more symbiotic. More spiritual. More integral. I wanted to feel and be present to the Force that is life. I wanted to have energy, feel energy, be energy, but in a tangible & useful way. In a way that felt embodied, yet divine, and served something higher than a public persona or false sense of self. But first I want to meet that energy.

All of that was to say, I know I wrote a lot about making some big changes in my life on this blog over the years, especially over the winter when my dog was ill and in trouble. Somehow that experience woke me from my indifferent slumber. I’m back at the ladder again. I’m interested in energy again. I’m wanting to feel the presence of Grace & hyper-synchronicity. I know it’s always there, always an underpinning. But there is a zone, that can only be reached through adventures. That powerful sense of mystery & magic & aliveness doesn’t come to those that remain comfortable. You have to fearlessly meet Grace halfway. You have to go to the edge of the ledge. You have to challenge your sense of familiar. You have to surrender what you know. You have to give up something to get something. You have to bravely trust. This isn’t easy. It takes dedication & work. It’s an ongoing practice.

So here I am again. Writing in journals. Stating over and over again, what I want and what I’m working towards. What I want to feel, where I want to be. On the inside. To reflect to the outside. And be of use, of service. Via Grace’s guidance & prodding.

I’m starting a new program/daily routine this week. I want to push myself in the following areas (written below), and I’m going to have a different accountability partner for each area. I’m also going to create a timeline for what I would like to experience & manifest over the next 5 months.

Friendships & Community

Health & Fitness

Finances & Resources

Creativity & Work

The goal is to push limits, get uncomfortable, explore boundaries, breathe new life. I may be writing about this for the next 10 years. I won’t be one bit surprised. I’m all in, willing to surrender to possibility and the most amazing life possible. For me it’s not a matter of attaining beautiful things or knowing impressive people. It’s me. I’m interested in what I could see, develop and know within myself. And then connect & magnetically join forces with like minds.

The journey continues. Adventure awaits.

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Living on a School Bus

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So as I mentioned on May 25, 2014, the plan was to set sail, leave my life in New York City, travel down south, and live in an Airstream Argosy on a piece of land. Well, on June 28th I did leave New York, I also traveled down south with a 1973 24″ foot Argosy trailer hitched to a truck. But shortly after that, things did not go according to plan. Obstacles and challenges were coming left & right. [I wrote a blog post in 2011 titled Your Biggest Obstacle Doesn’t Exist, you should check it out!] I had to quickly change plans and also leave a lot open to what might come next.

So here I am. Updating you on what is happening now, and what might be next. I am currently renting a converted school bus. I embedded lots of photos of school bus living at the end of this blog post for you, so that you can get the general idea. It’s basically a school bus that has been converted into a tiny home. The one I am living in now is not as fancy as a few of the photos I included (with fireplaces, etc.), but it does have a bedroom, running water, and lots of things that make it feel like a home. I’m enjoying my stay on the bus, and I am scheduled to be here throughout the month of July.

The Argosy travel trailer is being stored and hopefully will have its floor repaired. (There was trouble with flooring, it needs to be replaced or repaired in certain areas, like around the refrigerator, where there was condensation.) It also might be too troublesome to bring to the land. The journey to the land has lots of switchback roads, and it’s on a steep hill (not the land itself, just getting there). So I’m not sure if bringing the Argosy there is a great idea, it might be more trouble than it’s worth. It might be easier to just site-build a wooden cabin, or some other structure. I’m going to hold off on that idea for a while, and see what feels best in time.

The plan for next month is to rent a home in Black Mountain. It’s a sweet place, I picked it out already and it’s all set up for August and beyond. The good thing about the home, is that it’s close to the land, and also close to town, so I get the best of both worlds for a while. My plan is to live there, work on my Etsy business, blog like crazy, develop a super-healthy exercise & eating routine, spend time on the land, and get to know Buncombe County. (Buncombe County is part of the Asheville, NC Metropolitan Statistical Area, which includes: Asheville, Black Mountain, French Broad, Biltmore Forest, Swannanoa, Woodfin, Montreat, Broad River, Flat Creek and much more.)

So that’s the update on my latest adventure. As it unfolds, I’ll have much more to share. I hope your adventure is unfolding as well. You know, leaving the life I set up for myself in New York was not easy. It was a huge risk and gamble. But really, what would I have to lose? What does anyone have to lose when starting over and trying something new? In my opinion, nothing. Because you learn & experience so much. And the really important things in life are the things you can’t keep safe, and you can’t take with you. When you die, what will you be able to take from your life? In my opinion, only the feeling that you either lived your life fully or the feeling that you didn’t.

Living fully doesn’t mean that you did crazy things, or that you lived life on the edge. It simply means that you were able to live with your fears — while at the same time — follow your heart. It means that you didn’t allow your fears to dictate your life.

Love your fears, hear them out, bring them with you — but don’t let them stop you from living the life you dream of. Gently show yourself, and your fears, that anything is possible, and that you deserve a chance to live courageously & completely.

That way, when it’s time to say farewell, you’ll feel like you were able to experience fully the gift that is your life. Think of it like a gift card — spend it! Give it away! Have fun with it! Use it up completely! But for god’s sake, don’t hang on to it, don’t file it away, don’t save it for the right moment in the future. That moment will never come.

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What’s Up with Aimee?

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airstream argosy

It seems like I rarely write blog posts with details about what I’m up to. I’ve been so busy over the last few months (years) that most of the blog posts are about social/political issues, emotions & thoughts, and the more-than-occasional re-post of older blog posts. But today I will share what is happening with me currently, and what I plan on doing next.

I’m wrapping-up my life in New York City — literally & figuratively. After almost 20 years of living in NYC, I’m moving on to a new life in a new place. I’m heading down south to the Asheville area, North Carolina. If you know anyone there, please let me know! I’d love to meet them. I’m literally starting from scratch there. Not knowing anyone, or even the area for that matter. Which is a daunting feeling, because I know NYC so well, and have so many friends here. It’s been so long, too long, since I started anew and pulled up my roots. It feels overwhelming to say the least.

mini black chihuahuaAnother new & surprising update in my life, is a little dog named Apple-Bea. She’s a tiny chihuahua that was rescued and needed to be adopted. Apple-Bea is her original name, but I don’t know how old she is, or any other information (e.g., why most of her teeth are missing, why she never barks, etc.) All I know is she is cute as a button, and I love her so much! I nicknamed her Pinch-Pot (click here for meaning). Don’t ask me why. She’s just so adorable, it makes me want to pinch her little doggie cheeks! (Especially when she smiles.)

The plan is to stay in NYC until the end of June. Then leave town and live in a 1970’s Argosy for a while. Do you know what that is? It’s an older Airstream model, a space-age looking RV. I’ll be on the off-grid land I mentioned getting in a previous blog post (back in 2012). The land is 5 acres in the forest. It’s a little scary. It’s the real deal; snakes, bears, trees galore, more pesky bugs than you can imagine — nature being nature, the wild being wild. I’ll be there in the Argosy, slowly plotting and planning the new life I’ll build with my beloved companions. I won’t be alone!

Asheville_NCIf you want to stay updated on what Apple-Bea (aka Pinch-Pot) and I are up to, you can always find us/me posting regularly on The Rainbow Farmer blog, my AimeeLovesYouXo Facebook page, and AimeeLovesYou Twitter account. And of course I’ll be posting here every Sunday, but I won’t be sharing as many updates as the other outlets I mentioned (because Sunday Is For Lovers only happens on Sundays!) I plan on sharing as many photos & updates as I can along my adventure. I hope to inspire others to get out there and live wild as well!

And you can always connect with me at my Etsy shop. I’ll be beading away in the forest encompassed Argosy, and sharing what I’m making via the shop. Oh yeah! And don’t forget you are always-always-always welcome to email me as well. My email address is located at the top right of this blog post, in the header menu.

Until the next time!

Love,
A.

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