[An email I sent to a friend.]
Subject: Like when light hits (illuminates) a (clean) diamond….
Date: Apr 18, 2008 4:04 PM
I was upset earlier today. I was really angry. Frustrated and disappointed (in myself). Then I realized that I was asleep. WAKE UP! What am I going on about? Why this dumb conversation with dumb attachments in my head? STOP! Then I thought, I only want to be happy. I don’t care about money, art, ego shit, nothing. I just want to connect with that, that which does not change. Spirit. That elusive truth that we experience in a moment, then lose it. Like when a diamond sparkles. Zing. Did you see it? I want to be that! I want more of that in my life. I want to reflect truth. The truth that has no meaning or limits, that does not need beauty or something outside of itself to become whole. It is realized in its completeness. It is complete in knowing that it is not independent of anything else. It is and it will always be perfect. Because it is.